Streaming Life, Burn Out and EGX!

Firstly, again. I am sorry I haven’t updated this more. I have failed horribly at getting stuff put out on here and I feel bad about it. I have a terrible memory and every time I think of something I want to talk about, I fail to remember this place is even here. I need to get better at doing things and getting into habits.

That said, streaming life update! I took a week off a few weeks back to recharge the old batteries. There’s been some dramas and some madness and some burnout (and even a touch of anger) that I had to deal with regarding streaming. But I got it out of my system. but burnout is something that is becoming a big issue lately.

So streaming, as a partner, is more than just going live and doing the stream. There’s a lot I won’t get into on here but just know that its not all about going live and performing. There is a lot goes on in the background. A lot of it becomes quite stressful on occasion.

Or rather it does if you let it, and I let it, hence taking the break.

There is something I want to say to all streamers that are feeling the burn. We all have those times when we wonder if it is worth continuing on with what you are doing. I see streamers quitting regularly or at the very least taking long breaks due to stress. So here it is…

On those days when you aren’t sure if you want to carry on, take that break. Take some time for yourself. Ask yourself an important question. “Why did I start streaming in the first place?” Compare the answer to that to what your current goals and stresses are. Likelihood is, somewhere along the line you lost your way because you forgot why you started in the first place.

I started streaming to make friends, simply enough. I had very few friends to play games with and I wanted more, so I started streaming. Somewhere along the line I got stressed about growth and after getting partner somewhere I got stressed about getting subs and “selling” subs to more people. I am proud to be a partner but my intial aim was never to make money, I just wanted to meet people and play video games with them. Remembering this has pulled me out of one of the biggest slumps I have had since I started streaming and lately, my streams (I have felt, at least) have been better than ever, because I remembered why I started in the first place. And I have made a ton of friends, and I love streaming and hanging out with my friends. I am happy with where I have come.

So when you feel like quitting, remember why you started in the first place.

That all aside, it is EGX 2018 this week! I will be there all 4 days and hope to meet a whole ton of my peers and community there, as I know many of you are going. I can’t wait, but will admit I am a bit nervous. There are so many top quality people I respect and admire going, and I am a timid little sausage. I hope to post about my trip to EGX on here so I will be taking notes while I am there!

Anyway, until next time, have a great day!

Battle of Azeroth Buildup in Review (Kinda)

So I recently got back into WoW after not being super impressed with the premise of the new expansion, Battle for Azeroth, when it was announced. That was a few months ago though.

There have been videos flying around on the World of Warcraft YouTube Channel for a while now and it piqued my interest. I started to hear “The Call of Azeroth”, a pet name, if you will, for when I get that urge to go back to playing it again.

On resubbing I initially didn’t find my feet and I wondered after a couple of days if I would actually continue playing. But I then loaded up my old main, a level 110 Gnome Priest, and played the pre-quest leading into the events of the new expansion.

Sylvanas Windrunner, I have always been a huge fan of her as a character in the lore, but I never expected the literal burning of the World Tree, Teldrassil, home of the night elves. It all starts as a campaign to capture Darnassus, to prevent the Alliance from moving Azerite (the new mineral that has surfaced after that big ol’ sword kinda battered Silithus) to the Eastern Kingdoms. But something goes wrong.

In the scene leading into the destruction of Teldrassil, a wounded night elf, who as far as I know hasn’t been named, appears to question Sylvanas and her motives. This seems to be enough to force her into a blind rage, ordering the burning of Teldrassil, something that would trigger possibly the greatest war ever between the Horde and the Alliance. High Overlord Saurfang questions her too, citing the honor of the Horde, but this appears to phase her very little.

In retaliation, the Alliance attack The Undercity, once capital of the Human kingdom of Lordaeron. The attack, from the quest line, goes very well for the Alliance (props to Jaina in her wacky flying galleon with the arcane cannons, nice touch) and they find themselves eventually in the throne room, battling through waves of Horde troops and blight, blight that was also killing Horde soldiers…

With the figureheads of the Alliance confronting Sylvanas, who is apparently cornered, she shows nothing but disdain and is calm as a cucumber.

She literally detonates blight over the whole city. Everyone dies. Horde, Alliance, everyone. Jaina managed to teleport the 4 of them away, who appear to be the only Alliance survivors. Ohh and your player character. You live too, somehow.

For something that had such a weak premise of “Ohh The Alliance and The Horde are fighting again” they have done a lot to make it matter. Azeroth has changed and it hasn’t been dragged out. In the blink of an eye two cities have fallen, and now we turn towards the expansion.

I really have high hopes now for Battle for Azeroth. I really hope that it doesn’t fall flat like Warlords of Draenor did (for me at least). It’s also coming off the back of Legion, which was really good. I want to see the war escalate more. I want to see the tension between Sylvanas and the rest of the Horde. I want to see how King Anduin copes with the situation. I want Saurfang to get what he really craves. He is still missing that warrior’s death. The pre-quests have gotten me hooked again!! Roll on next week…

While I am here, I apologize for not getting more on here. I am bad at time management and need to force myself into some habits better. I do try, but honestly, not hard enough. But to all of you who come and read this, thank you. I appreciate you!

The Crew 2 (Review?)

For the record, I said in my last post I wouldn’t be buying it, and I did not. So my disclaimer for this post is that I received a code for free from Mixer.com for review purposes and livestreaming on my channel. I have played the game for roughly 9 hours, both solo and in a Crew. Probably not a huge amount in the great scheme of things but I can’t bring myself to continue…

The points in my previous post, in a lot of ways, still apply. Checkpointing for street racing is appalling. It’s still way to easy to miss a turn because the game doesn’t checkpoint properly, requiring the use of the minimap way too much to find the route to the next one, which is distracting. This was the basis of my previous post based on the open beta. I was mad about it, you can read that here. I will say that I enjoy the handling of my Mazda MX5 I have been using for street races though. I just want to know where to drive it to…

However I have now played more than just the street races of course. Touring cars drive like tanks, which is horrendous. The track based races are easier to find you way around though, because it’s a track. Then there is the rally racing. They handle lovely but checkpoints, again, way too far apart. I get the whole make your own road thing going on with it, but putting a checkpoint on the other side of a river and just expecting the player to find a way around in a timed situation is just rude. On the opposite side, Drift cars are WAY too drifty. Drift cars just drift by default with no user effort, making them super hard to use. They drift when they want, not when the player wants.

Moving on though, I don’t dislike everything. Powerboat racing is really fun. Every one of the powerboat races has been a great time. The handling on them is exceptional and the tracks are laid out in a fun but clear way. Fun as it is though, it just points out the inconsistency in these different events. Checkpoints are pretty much spot on in these powerboat races and I really don’t see why they couldn’t apply the same mentality to the street racing. It almost feels like the two were developed by completely seperate teams who didn’t communicate. Jet sprint is also a great class, taking to the water again in some great events.

The flying isn’t bad either. It’s a little simple but that’s not necessarily a bad thing in an arcade style game. Air racing and Aerobatics are super fun, if a touch janky in places. I had one moment in aerobatics where the game asked me to do a loop-de-loop, and I had to do it five times before it would register that I had done it. But that aside, the planes control really quite nicely.

Monster trucks are also a bit of fun. The racing of them is a bit frustrating, just because monster trucks are a bit of a pain to control, but they do control how you would expect so this isn’t necessarily a bad thing. The arena events for Monster trucks is where the fun is though. Doing tricks to rack up points is quite the good time, but the scoring system is a bit weird, favouring collectibles worth points instead of rewarding the tricks themselves.

Another issue that is really glaring for me is the lack of anything to do in the open world. The map is the whole USA and there is very little to do in it. There are mini events scattered across the map but they only reward you with small amounts of fans (how they track game progress) and money, which you can get more of by just fast travelling to proper events, rendering them pretty useless. There are also prize boxes hidden in places, facilitating some exploration, but again all I got was parts for vehicles, which I get by doing events anyway, rendering them useless.

I’d love to see different rewards for the mini events and the hidden boxes, just to give the player more of a reason to do it. Especially the hidden boxes. I really wanted the game to encourage me to explore the beautiful map that it has, but there is just no real need. It’s a shame. The game is so pretty to look at. I just want a reason to look at more of it. I want a reason to not just fast travel to main events.

The thing with this game for me is that the car related stuff is pretty poor. The flying is decent, but simple and the water based stuff is fun. But that’s really the only bit I was consistently having fun. It’s not really worth for me to continue playing when the only real fun I am finding is in the water. The biggest disappointment for me is that I really wanted this game to be way better than it is, but it is decidedly average. Lots of mistakes from the first game have reappeared in the sequel and there are just way to many niggling annoyances to make the game fun. It feels way too much like a chore for all the wrong reasons because the game isn’t hard, its just frustrating to play. I wanted something to tide me over until Forza Horizon 4 but that isn’t what I got.

The Crew 2 Open Beta… Why I Won’t be Buying the Game

Simple really. The check point system. The system that tells you where to go when you are in a race. It’s garbage.

I am a fairly big fan of Forza Horizon 3 and I am hyped as all hell for Forza Horizon 4. Like super hyped. The Crew 2 has an open beta, live right now as I type this (it finishes on Monday 25th June afaik) and people all around have told me I’ll love it if I love Forza Horizon 3. So naturally I have tried it out.

Now I started out this post literally with the one key reason I don’t like The Crew 2. Now, it works with the same checkpoint system used in Forza Horizon 3 or GTA Online’s racing. You race in a real world environment, not necessarily a racetrack, and the game provides checkpoints to mark out the route.

Now GTA Online (official courses, let’s be clear here) and FH3 do this in a good way. The checkpoints are very clearly marked and they exist on every corner of a track. The minimap also points out the whole course so you can see exactly what you’re up against and see exactly where you need to go.

The Crew 2 doesn’t do either of these things. Checkpoints are more spaced out, perhaps to facilitate looking for shortcuts. But sometimes your next checkpoint is around a series of bends. Seriously, all these bends need a checkpoint to make the course more visible. The first proper race I had I drove through a checkpoint and the next one just wasn’t visible. IT WAS BEHIND ME! I had to go round a 180° bend which was not marked out.

Oh aye, it was on the minimap, but only after I had cleared the previous checkpoint, so I didn’t even have time to slow down for the bend, crashing out with no style at all. So, the minimap only takes you to your next checkpoint. WHY THE HELL DOESN’T THE MINIMAP MAP THE WHOLE COURSE! It’s completely senseless! Want me to win a race? TELL ME WHERE THE COURSE GOES!

Why do I seem so angry? It’s just an open beta Slink! You didn’t pay anything for it Slink!. I am mad because it’s one of those games I want to like. I really really want something to tide me over until Forza Horizon 4 comes out. But The Crew 2 does so much, goes out of its way even, to make me dislike it. It is riddled with design flaws, not in it’s tracks, but in the way they are presented. Not to mention the collision mechanics are stiff as a board. Make a slight mistake and clip a fence? Prepare to lose all your momentum.

So The Crew 2. I am sorry. I want to like you, but you don’t want me to like you, and that is a shame. You have so much potential and all you need is some QoL tweaks. Also you made me say GTA Online does something better than you, and that makes me very sad…

Please?

I Have Not Already Forgotten About This Place…

Between streaming, work and E3, I have to admit, I haven’t had an awful lot to talk about. Which is odd, considering E3 is in that list. I wasn’t hugely hyped for much, aside from Kingdom Hearts 3 and Forza Horizon 4. That said, I have EGX coming in September where I will get some hands on time with a lot of new games, so perhaps that is what I am waiting for.

Wasn’t E3 an odd one this year though? It started so strong. Microsoft really knocked it out of the park this year and while I can’t say (again) as I was hyped for much, there was a lot going on there that I know a lot of people are excited for. Nintendo had an alright showing, if you like Smash Bros, which I kinda don’t. Sony, well… Fortnite kind of over shadowed your whole thing huh… Well done.

Still, I figured I’d post a wee update. I am still trying to figure out how to add updating this place to my list of things to do and it always takes me a while to add new things to my routine. Though I have managed to add some more exercise to that routine. I am losing weight nicely and playing Pokemon Go again…

What? I want to find some hype into those fandangled Pokemon Let’s Go games… What! Stop looking at me like that!!!

Again, new post soon, when I have something to rant about (probably). I mean, it might not be a rant, it might be nice and fun. Like me.

Why the Word “Grind” Needs to Disappear

For context’s sake, I made a comment on someone’s tweet last night regarding this topic and the use of the word grind which apparently escalated into something unintended. I blame myself for this. In a tweet especially, but for me just in general, I sometimes articulate myself poorly and people misunderstand the things I say and for that I am sorry. I have massive respect for content creators that work really damned hard to get where they are and they deserve all the respect in the world for building what they have. But the word “Grind” needs to disappear.

Grinding is what my Mother had to do bringing me up on her own, whilst caring for her Mother with next to no money. It wasn’t fun, it was disheartening and some days felt like there was no way forward. Now before anyone asks, no, I am not looking for sympathy. Both me and my Mother are in pretty good places these days compared to back then. We got through it. I am just making a point.

The Cambridge Dictionary definition of “Grind” in this context is “a difficult or boring activity that needs a lot of effort”, which to me doesn’t sound like what content creation should be, or indeed is. Grind is such a poor choice of words, especially when trying to encourage up and coming creators who want to see growth. It certainly shouldn’t be boring, I mean hell, if you’re a content creator and you’re bored, with all due respect, your talents and passion probably belong elsewhere. I’d wager for the idea that anyone who finds it boring probably isn’t doing it.

Now a lot of this follows on from some of the things I said in my previous post regarding attitudes, but bear with me. I feel like the word “Grind” has replaced the term “Hard Work”, and in its simplest terms, this is my issue with it. Hard work, sure, is hard, it’s in the term. But work can be and should be rewarding. People work hard because they want to, they are passionate and not bored. People grind because they have to. That’s why a lot of us work jobs we don’t like. It’s a responsibility that we could otherwise do without. Some people work a job they love. It’s still a responsibility, but it’s not a grind if you have passion.

I’d really like to see a change in the world of content creation that abandons the word grind. Content creators get a lot of hate from others who claim that they got there because the platform allowed it to happen or because they got promotion others did not. But the truth is, anyone who is successful, got where they are got there due to hard work and dedication. Positive things that helped them move forward. When we try to encourage fledgling creators, let’s encourage them to work hard. Let’s encourage them to have passion and to stay positive. Let’s encourage them to learn the other things that revolve around content creation like networking and suchlike. Let’s encourage them to not be disheartened by slow growth. Let’s encourage them that every bit of growth was because they worked hard for it. Let’s encourage them to feel rewarded for the hard work they put in.

Let’s not encourage grind. It’s an unhealthy word that doesn’t replace hard work and passion.

Two Types of Streamers and Attitudes to and from Them (In My Experience)

At the time of writing this, I just got finished chatting to Shell (my partner) about streaming and the idea of full-time streaming, and as I was talking about it I explained a very simplistic idea, which I would say 90% of the time applies.

There are two types of streamer that I tend to see. Community Streamers and Branded Streamers.

There are some examples of crossovers here but these are two very distinct things I have found. Community streamers (which I identify as) tend to be smaller streamers. They tend to be variety streamers and they tend to have a very tight group of regulars and slow growth. Some, like me, tend to have shaky schedules week on week due to other commitments in life and tend to be part-time.

Branded streamers tend to stick to a strict schedule and tend to stick to one or two games. They have a community based around the game they play that grows quickly, because the community that builds knows exactly what they are getting. The streamer conforms to a brand standard that people can always come back to. A lot of these streamers tend to be more full-time.

Now, something that has, for a while, bothered me is that there are some streamers from both sides of this fence that like to throw negativity over the other side of the fence, and as someone who identifies as a community streamer, I see a lot more of this from the smaller, community based streamers than the other way. It’s a minority, to be sure. Most streamers I know are damned fine people. There are a few that are very self-centred and bitter.

I have always been someone who has conformed to the idea of “Let people do”. I like the idea of letting people do what they want to do. Anything is fine as long as you’re not recklessly harming yourself or others around you, which is why I get saddened a lot by people getting frustrated by others. One of the main complaints I see from community minded streamers towards more branded streamers is their reliance on playing “trending” or popular games to get ahead. I’ve seen small streamers getting angry on Twitter because they can’t grow unless they play trending games (which is entirely untrue in my opinion, I’ve done just fine). I have seen streamers ridicule larger, more popular full-time streamers for their way of doing things.

Smaller streamers. You always have the choice of how you stream. So do they. They did their thing. You do yours. Stop worrying about what others are doing and focus on your content.

The other thing I have seen though, which I also have to question, is bigger streamers saying things such as “I grind 60 hours a week to get where I am. What are you doing?” I can only speak for myself but I only manage about 20ish hours a week on average because I can’t afford to stream full-time. I mean I am not personally targeted by this, I’m using myself as an example. I am happy with what I am doing but it makes me wonder, if streaming is a “grind” to do it full-time for a living, is it any better than any other job?

It’s made me think extensively about myself and my stream and I find myself asking the question “Do I want to stream full-time?”. The answer used to be yes, but these days I am not so sure.

Streaming for me is a getaway. Somewhere I can be a bit silly and hang out with and make lots of new friends. I am a partnered streamer and money I make doing it goes into buying new games and equipment to stream with and it works for me. I don’t want that to become a super stressful thing. I have had main games on my channel come and go because I got frustrated playing the same thing. Branded streaming is not my thing.

Again, going back to my two types of streamer. The lines are blurred in some cases for sure. But if you are a community based streamer playing lots of things part-time, I feel like you have to accept that you won’t grow magically overnight. I accepted it a while ago and I am so much happier with what I do as a result. I believe I put out quality content, but it won’t be to everyone’s taste. I find people coming in and saying hi just to leave when I immediately respond. Perhaps they get nervous or shocked I replied so quickly. I really don’t know. But others come and stay and laugh and have a good time and I will say, I have a wonderfully close-knit community, which I worry may seem inaccessible to some people discovering me and that’s another challenge altogether. I am always trying to welcome new people to my channel and sometimes I hook them, sometimes I don’t. I accept I may never go full-time doing things the way I do and that’s okay by me.

So, when you want advice on how to become a big streamer from a big streamer and they say grind, try it. But big streamers, know this. Not everyone can. You are blessed with the patience and drive to stream 60 hours a week, sometimes around a job and you deserve praise for that. I don’t, however, think encouraging everyone to grind is healthy. It creates a lot of smaller streamers who get frustrated because they didn’t blow up in a week, a month, even a year.

And smaller streamers, if you’re one of these people frustrated and throwing negativity at larger streamers then look at yourself. Are you happy? If the answer is no, don’t take it out on others. Don’t berate people for not coming into your streams (I know a guy who complains constantly about people not showing up to his streams, that attitude will drive them, away more, not bring them back. People have lives y’know). Just enjoy the ride.

My advice for new streamers? Just stream. See if you like it. If you do, keep it up. If not, nobody is forcing you to continue. Everything above, I have learned on my journey. I have had the frustrations and come out the other side a better streamer, and a better person overall. It’s all about choice. Will you choose positivity or negativity?

I Finally Did The Thing!

Well, it finally happened. I have been threatening (promising?) to put together a website for some time and now, well as I said, it finally happened!

So, it is with great joy I can say WELCOME to Slinkonage.co.uk! Having recently been accepted by EGX as a press member thanks to being a partnered streamer I thought I would try and develop my writing and typing skills again. It’s been a while since I last had any sort of blog or website put together and it is definitely the first time since becoming a Mixer streamer so I hope this will be quite an exciting time in my life.

That said, like most things, I have very little planned to go on here. It’s going to be more of a ramblethon than anything else. Somewhere I can be a bit opinionated and discuss things I want to discuss. I’m going to be making sure that I bring everyone’s attention to this little project of mine so apologies in advance for Twitter/Discord/anywhere else you might find links to this place.

And so for now, again, welcome. I hope this winds up being a beautiful ride!